Month: September 2020
I don’t think I’m quite as odd as others say I am.
“When I have neither pleasure nor pain and have been breathing for a while the lukewarm insipid air of these so called good and tolerable days, I feel so bad in my childish soul that I smash my moldering lyre of thanksgiving in the face of the slumbering god of contentment and would rather feel the very devil burn in me than this warmth of a well-heated room. A wild longing for strong emotions and sensations seethes in me, a rage against this toneless, flat, normal and sterile life. I have a mad impulse to smash something, a warehouse, perhaps, or a cathedral, or myself, to commit outrages, to pull off the wigs of a few revered idols…”
― Hermann Hesse
Perpetual Happiness In The Garden of Eden
Is life not a thousand times too short for us to bore ourselves?
Thoughts to Ponder
Steve Jobs last words
Steve Jobs died a billionaire, with a fortune of $ 7 billion, at the age of 56 from pancreatic cancer, and here are some of his last words:
“In other eyes, my life is the essence of success, but aside from work, I have a little joy, and in the end wealth is just a fact of life to which I am accustomed.
At this moment, lying on the bed, sick and remembering all my life, I realize that all my recognition and wealth that I have is meaningless in the face of imminent death.
You can hire someone to drive a car for you, make money for you – but you can not rent someone to carry the disease for you.
One can find material things, but there is one thing that can not be found when it is lost – “life”.
Treat yourself well, and cherish others. As we get older we are smarter, and we slowly realize that the watch is worth $ 30 or $ 300 – both of which show the same time.
Whether we carry a purse worth $ 30 or $ 300 – the amount of money in the wallets are the same.
Whether we drive a car worth $ 150,000, or a car worth $ 30,000 – the road and distance are the same, we reach the same destination.
If we drink a bottle worth $ 300 or wine worth $ 10 – the “stroller” will be the same.
If the house we live in is 300 square meters, or 3000 square meters – the loneliness is the same.
Your true inner happiness does not come from the material things of this world. Whether you’re flying first class, or economy class – if the plane crashes, you crash with it.
So, I hope you understand that when you have friends or someone to talk to – this is true happiness!
Four Undeniable Facts-
1. Do not educate your children to be rich. Educate them to be happy. – So when they grow up they will know the value of things, not the price.
2. Eat your food as medicine, otherwise you will need to eat your medicine as food.
3. Whoever loves you will never leave you, even if he has 100 reasons to give up. He will always find one reason to hold on.
4. There is a big difference between being human and real human.
Some men can be so toxic to your health. They don’t want to love you properly, but they don’t want to let you go either. The more you give the less they appreciate, and the minute you’ve had enough and decide to walk away is when they are ready to love you and treat you right. So you give them a chance in the hopes they’ve changed only to realise it was all fake.
You find the strength to walk away once more and here he comes again proclaiming his love for you and you give in, AGAIN.
A man showing anger and persistence to get you back once you try to break it of isn’t proof of love; its a knee jerk reaction. A man kissing your ass or making flaccid attempts to be nicer for two weeks isn’t proof that he’s trying, its proof that he knows you well enough to know how to defuse you long enough to hook you once again. Take away a toy, a little boy cries. Take away a relationship of convenience, a man cries. Just because he cries doesn’t mean you give him what he wants.
Stop listening to what your man keeps promising and start watching what his actions actually keep telling you. A lot of you women don’t know what its like to be loved by a real man. You know lust, you know joy, you know passion and you know the fear of abandonment. Stop chasing your idea of what love should be and recognize what love IS.
Love isn’t promising to act right after he gets caught fucking up time and time again. Love is him acting right from the start because he doesn’t want to fuck up. Love isn’t telling your grown man he needs to change so he can keep you; love is a grown man changing on his own because he cant imagine life without you.
If it ain’t broke…
…don’t fix it.
Why tamper with something that is working perfectly?
I know… I know…
The only constant in this world is changes. And I’m all for a change. But if it’s only for the better and not for worse. Or at least, give people a choice: To be or not to be for crying out loud.
Now I’m lost.
Can’t find my way around.
Show me the road to yesterday and I will gladly follow.
Have to learn to navigate now in this new world.
Time to enlist the help of someone.
Crossing my fingers and toes.
Spread Your Wings
This is how most parents bring up their children.
And so they say.
In my opinion not only parents do this, society in general as well. And practically all governing bodies.
What say you?
Never Wrestle With A Pig
Don’t go into battle with an unarmed person.
Never argue with stupid people, they will drag you down to their level and then beat you with experience.
Never wrestle with a pig. You will only get dirty, and besides, the pig likes it.
These are the words I keep reminding myself whenever I encounter downright nasty people with downright nasty comments. It saves me from wasting my time fighting a battle not worth fighting for.
I pity those sorts of beings.
Only those who have serious issues with self-confidence and self-worth and are not happy with themselves have an urge to belittle others and stand on someone else’s back to look tall.
Because if one is satisfied with who they are, they will never seek validation from other people and they will never feel the need to put down others to feel good about themselves.
Not so easy at times. Some people have a knack in provoking but recognize a hopeless situation when you see one. You can never argue with someone who has a limited cranial capacity. You will lose every time.
So next time you find yourself in this situation, say to yourself: I don’t wrestle with a pig… and simply walk away.
I’ve been away so long because I’ve been to this place.
It was not my first choice but in the current climate, beggars cannot be choosy. I had never been here before. You might say after 32 years in Europe I must have been in this place at least once. Especially when it isn’t really that far. Just a thousand kilometers from where I live. But it isn’t my thing. I am more of a southern type of girl. Ragged coastlines and plenty of sun and laid back atmosphere, that’s more my cup of tea.
But surprise, surprise! I like the place! No, I love it! I love it so much I could live there. Must be the mountains juxtaposed with water which reminds me of my childhood that did it. Not sure. Could be also the scarcity of buildings and people coupled with peace and quiet. Anyway, it didn’t feel like a vacation, it felt like home.
And the food? Another surprise. Tasty and made with love. I thought this kind of cuisine will not suit me but it turned out I could eat anything as long as it tastes good. And the spring water I tasted and splashed my face during a hike to a series of waterfalls, I would gladly bottled gallons of it and if it was allowed, I jump right in and wallow in that clear, clear water. Another reminder of home.
Another thing that new is___ I have never been a wine drinker. Occasionally, when a meal calls for it but on this holiday, I drink wine almost every night. Their wine is so good that I even bought two bottles to take home. A bit pricey but I reckon how many times I encounter a wine that drinks so easily it could have been a lemonade. So, I give in and purchased a couple of bottles.
And what do you know… I even found a house I would like to settle in. It is a Tirol version of our current abode I find. Pity, it isn’t for sale. And even then… It would be a stretch.
I’ll be back I know for sure. Perhaps not in this exact same place but somewhere around this vast area. The magic of the mountains finally got me and I think it will stay with me for a long time if not forever.
There is only one downside I experienced during my stay in this tranquil paradise. My eyes for some unknown reason were always puffy as if I did nothing but cried whole night. I have no idea why. Could be the altitude or some foreign allergens in the air but I had my nose spray with me, my allergy pills and some cortison tablets the doctor had prescribed in case my allergy gets worse but unfortunately it didn’t help. A small price to pay I find.
On the way to this place, I have been in other beautiful places worth blogging about. We took the car for the first time ever instead of a plane. I did other road trips before but not quite like this one. This time we didn’t hurry. We did it in three days. Stopping when we wanted to and exploring where we parked. We experienced memorable moments and encountered memorable beings that I seriously considering to start vlogging. And why not? I’m always on the road anyway, why not share it with the world.
I will think about it, consider the pros and cons and as you know by now, I’m so much attached to my privacy so, it is worth thinking over.
We will purchase a mobile home next year and I’m sure it will be the start of a whole new adventure.
I hope you’ve missed me. 🙂
Till next time.
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