Hij werd koel, afstandelijk, emotioneel onbereikbaar. Nooit een lief gebaar, nooit een vriendelijk woord, nooit een compliment.
Let’s translate it in English…
He became cool, distant, emotionally unattainable. Never a sweet gesture, never a kind word, never a compliment.
… and you got the gist of my first marriage.
Add to that violence, deception, cheating, manipulation, emotional physical and psychological abuse and the picture is complete.
Why I’m saying this?
Some of you might think that I’m not yet over it. That after all these years I have not managed to move on despite what I stated in my new year resolution. The answer is yes and no.
Yes, I have moved on but no I didn’t forget. I wonder if I ever will.
No, I’m not living in the past. Not anymore. Yes, I still suffer the consequences of that traumatic experience.
Why not let the sleeping dogs lie.
Instead of digging up old bones.
No reasons.
I just came across that passage (the one in Dutch) and it reminds me of my previous existence. Nothing more nothing less.
Honestly.
Don’t look for further reasons. It is just how my mind works.