Is that so?
When you hit rock bottom the only way is up?
Dangerous are the people who got nothing to lose
They up the stake and go all the way.
I feel like that sometimes.
Other times I worry about everything and nothing.
But one thing is true
The more you have, the more scared you get of losing them.
Same with people I guess.
The more you love them, the greater the fear.
Watching thriller and detective films sometimes, I curse when I learned that the leading character has a family, children especially. I think to myself: How stupid you are to have an Achilles heel. In that line of work, better to live alone and have nothing you cannot walk away from when the situation calls for it.
If I have got my wish, I am living that kind of life. Solitary. Lone wolf. Always in transition, nothing to lose, never vulnerable.
I will be a Ronin.
Yeah. I like that. A secret fantasy of mine.
I never walk into a place I don’t know how to walk out of.
And I never took a companion I cannot shoot in the head without a second thought.