Tantrums

I’m very low-maintenance, and that is a problem. I’m not demanding at all, and sometimes I feel that I should be throwing tantrums. 

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Our lives are full of opportunities to start over; however, every so often there’s a powerful and potent energy in the air that gives us a turbo-charged boost and makes new beginnings far easier to accomplish—and here it is, albeit with countless twists and turns along the way.

Note to remember: what we think we want or need isn’t always what we get, or what we truly actually want or need! Our intuitive heart knows the way, so it is vital to listen to its guidance, instead of following our unruly, irrational, overthinking mind.

If we aren’t open to change and we do not attune ourselves to the vibrational flow, we are in for a turbulent ride, as we are going to be faced with lesson after lesson, until we learn to accept the impermanence of life and that ultimately nothing stays the same for long.

In truth, there are no beginnings and endings. There is just a constantly changing force, in which life goes through diverse cycles of closure, rebirth, and transformation. Even the most sudden starts and endings are part of a series of events that have all led to the moment when change finally takes place.

If we think about anything we have experienced in our lives, whether it’s the end of a relationship, the offering of a new career, or an opportunity to move to a different part of the world, it has all been an accumulation of choices we have made at different stages of our lives—even if we aren’t aware that those choices were connecting significant dots together.

Therefore, anything we want to achieve is not as dramatic or out of reach as we might initially think. We have been taking small steps toward all that we want in our lives, pretty much throughout our entire life. We are masters of creation, and everything we achieve is all part of our own majestic plan, regardless of whether we are consciously or subconsciously aware of it. The only things we aren’t accountable or responsible for are other people’s motives and actions; that is why it is advisable to keep a safe distance from those whose intentions are to cause chaos and harm.

One of the main reasons that we procrastinate, feel unworthy, or do not take chances to get what we want is often because we feel that we have more planning, more work, and more to learn before we arrive there. However, this new moon is vibrating with the exact frequency required to give us a sharp cosmic push so that we stop procrastinating and truly start focusing on putting our lives into a high, passionate gear.

We may have been hearing the internal whispers that it is time to make decisions about major aspects of our lives—and to stick to those plans and see them through. But instead, we silence them with a thousand reasons as to why it is not yet the time, or we make excuses for other people’s behavior so that we do not have to deal with temporarily turning our lives upside down. Meanwhile, we are living half-lives, receiving half-loves, and doing ourselves (and possibly others) a huge disservice by not celebrating every sacred moment we have on this earth by living life to the absolute fullest.

We tell ourselves, “Tomorrow, or maybe next week…next month even,” so the time never seems to arrive. We hold on to thought patterns, people, jobs, and even harmful belief systems, just to put off the inevitable—despite it eating away at us and causing dysfunction and confusion on the inside.

When we silence all fears and worries, we are left with an inner knowing that isn’t afraid to push forward and get to the place that we know we belong—somewhere that offers fulfillment, peace, joy, and pure blissful happiness; but instead, many of us remain battling to steer a sinking ship.

This new moon is the time to question why we would rather stay stranded out in the middle of a cold, dark ocean, rather than braving the unknown and crossing the stormy waters to reach the calm of the shore.

Mercury retrograde usually tips our lives out of alignment and causes flurries of arguments, troubles, and strife to flare up—purely so that our awareness is raised and we see where we’re placing our focus. We come out of the retrograde phase breathing a huge sigh of relief that it’s all over, and along with that we also have discovered so much of what was going on behind the scenes and who was wearing masks to cover their true nature and motives. However, this is only the start; our lives were shaken up so that we recognize exactly where we need healing, and also where there is repair work to be done.

It is no coincidence that this powerful new moon in Aries coincides with the end of the retrograde; it is cosmically placed right at this exact time of existence for a magnificent shift to occur, and we are the ones in control who can drive that energy so that we move forward and take responsibility for where we are and who we are surrounded by.

The collective cosmic placings on the evening of the new moon make it one off the strongest and transformational nights of the year—and truly it is the ultimate time to sit ourselves down and have a serious internal conversation and contemplate why we are not prioritising ourselves and making decisions that are going to get us living the exact life we want and deserve.

It is going to take every bit of inner strength, courage, and determination we can muster to make the hard, but necessary, decision to move forward—and to put our happiness, spiritual and emotional health, and well-being first.

Of course, many of us have responsibilities and people and circumstances that we can’t just step away from—and that is okay, as the lunar energy always asks us to act with care, compassion, and love. This is less about walking away from anyone or anything, and more about recognizing that we are vital beings, precious creatures on this earth, and we only have this one life to show up and be the most wondrous creations of living, breathing life that we can possibly be.

We all have visions of what we hope to achieve during our lifetimes, and many of us know that we have been selling ourselves short in a variety of ways by not taking life by the reigns and directing our future in a way that gets us as close as we possibly can to what we know we are capable of and deserve.

No one ever said life would be easy or that our journey wouldn’t be full of plot twists, game changes, and obstacles; however, that is the divine reason we exist on this planet—to show the universe exactly what we are made of, and that despite hardships or life knocking us down, we refuse to allow derailments to throw us off course for long, or for turmoil to keep us sobbing on our knees.

As Rocky Balboa said:

“The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place…and I don’t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard you hit—it’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward…how much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done. Now, if you know what you’re worth, go out and get what you’re worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits. And not pointing fingers saying: you ain’t what you wanna be because of him or her or anybody. Cowards do that, and that ain’t you! You’re better than that.”

Whatever changes are required, we can do this. We have everything we need within us to pull ourselves out of the mud or to disassociate with anything or anyone that has been dragging us down and lowering our personal vibration so that we feel trapped, suppressed, or abused in any way. We are worthy of being around people who celebrate us, who adore us, who mutually love and appreciate us, and whose hearts love, care, and share in the same way ours do; yet, so many of us give ourselves away until we reach burnout and exhaustion—and in turn, we do not have the energy to share our unique souls and gifts with the world.

Aries is all about putting yourself first—and despite what the world may have tried to tell us, this is of the utmost importance and the least selfish thing we can do. When we are shining examples of self-love and self-care, those around us will have no choice but to do the same for themselves or to fall away; and in turn, we are in the vibration of love that flows so powerfully and abundantly.

“Self-care is so important. When you take time to replenish your spirit, it allows you to serve others from the overflow. You cannot serve from an empty vessel.” ~ Eleanor Brownn

This new moon is the time we have been waiting for to actively start the ball rolling toward a beautiful new life by setting life-changing intentions and putting a magnificent plan into action. Then, allow the frequency of this super-charged cosmic energy to do whatever it needs to so that it manifests naturally and creates an existence that is far beyond our wildest dreams.

Be brave, be proud of yourself, have faith in your capability, and then ask and open so that you receive all that you want, need, deserve, and so much more.

~Alex Myles via Relephant

Lines

Count the lines.

Bestow

I would like to receive the same amount of respect (which by the way on the top of my list) I bestow on others. Forget love, forget romance, forget friendship, courtship or any relationship because, without respect, there will be no chance for any form of lasting connection, alliance, association, between two people. Mutual respect is a solid foundation of any strong correlation. Passion goes away, love can disappear and romance seldom lasts but as long as there is respect, there is hope for a strong bond that can stand the test of time. Leo Tolstoy once said: “Respect was invented to cover the empty place where love should be.” BS! How could there be love if there is no respect? Could you love someone you don’t respect? I don’t think so. So, I’d say respect others and their beliefs, their personal tastes and their opinions and most of all respect yourself because only by that will you compel others to respect you.

Vague

Straight question straight answer

No beating around the bushes

A vague sensation of something is about to happen

Wishing to know the three w’s

You know…

When what, where

And of course to whom

How about the winning combination of lottery numbers

Instead of always impending doom

Can predict the future of others

But have no clue of own fate

Wish everything is so simple and predictable

But predictable is boring

Life is how you make it

Try the theory for real and you will find out that

Like most things it is easier said than done

Good weather with a vague hint of rain from a distance

A perfect day could be energy draining

Being among people even for a while makes me treasure solitude even more

The week has just begun it’s only Monday

Let’s practice Carpe Diem

And Carpe Noctem for the rest of the week

Even better let’s make it Carpe Omnia

See if it works

Goodluck people!

Authentic

That’s me, fearlessly authentic. Not an easy road to travel but I don’t know any better. I’m flexible and adaptable, always approaching new horizons with zero expectations and wide open mind but there is something I cannot do, go against my principles, morals, and values. I did try though but it just doesn’t feel right. It’s like if you eat something bad and it lodged heavily in your stomach and refuses to digest no matter what, or in some cases got stuck in your throat and stay there, that’s how I feel trying to be who I’m not.

Parallel

Do you believe in a parallel universe? I do. Could you digest the concept of someone might have an ability to slide from this world to another, like shifting or time traveling? I could. Handy when it’s raining here and you don’t want to get wet. Even better, go where the sun is shining, where I came from, the land of endless summer.

Have you ever had a chance to take a glimpse of another universe? I did. Several times. The last one was a few years ago when while lying in my bed the hairs on my neck suddenly stood up and I knew from experience that something was about to happen. I can detect moments like that by sensing the sudden shift in the atmosphere, so subtle changes like ripples in the air but nonetheless present, and sure enough when I turned around a portion of my bedroom wall started to slowly peel off and revealed a totally different place; a cobbled street with old houses on both sides painted mostly with ochre color. It was just a fraction of a second but it was there as real as you and me in this world. 

The authenticity of my claim is, of course, debatable for so many obvious reasons; one of those is what my son has presented to me for argument’s sake he said that he believes anything I had experienced is indeed real, to me it is but it doesn’t mean it is really so. My son has a tendency to burst my bubbles and keep my feet on the ground. Maybe it is for the best.

I wonder what he would say if I tell him about the time I was trapped between two walls, or the day I disappeared inside a city square fountain or had a conversation with a ghost. Maybe I’ll bother him with the details the next time he visits. 

Prolific

At this time of the year, there are some plants that bloom prolifically as if there is no tomorrow. And rightly so because their days are numbered. They have to put on a show as best as they can for their beauties are transient, ephemeral. Their glory is momentary, their claim to fame is short and sudden. Luckily, they will have another chance to do it again though they have to wait long for it. But what’s another year?        

Fret

I’m a worrier. I worry about everything and nothing. Once a month I experience a severe anxiety attack, recurrent unexpected moments of panic and feeling of impending doom. I usually have them before and after a full moon. Coupled with chronic insomnia and irrational fears, these comorbid conditions interfere a great deal with my daily existence I can hardly function during these periods I am literally paralyzed with fear. The funny thing is I don’t exactly know why and where it is coming from. Okay, I am suffering from PTSD, that’s no secret and I know trauma is one of the triggers of this disorder but even then… Anyway, I would not bore you with tedious details. It’s enough to say that I have serious bouts of GAD. 

Crank

“Girls get screwed.
Not that kind of screwed, what I mean is, they’re always on the short end of things.

The way things work, how 
guys feel great, but make girls feel
cheap for doing
exactly what 
they beg for.

The way they get to play you, 
all the while claiming they 
love you and making you 
believe it’s 
true.

The way it’s okay to gift their heart one day, a backhand the next, 
to move on to the apricot
when the peach blushes and bruises.

These things make me believe God’s a man after all.” 

― Ellen Hopkins, Crank

I Am a Rock

A winter’s day
In a deep and dark
December
I am alone
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow

I am a rock
I am an island

I’ve built walls
A fortress deep and mighty
That none may penetrate
I have no need of friendship, friendship causes pain
It’s laughter and it’s loving I disdain
I am a rock
I am an island

Don’t talk of love
But I’ve heard the words before
It’s sleeping in my memory
I won’t disturb the slumber of feelings that have died
If I never loved I never would have cried
I am a rock
I am an island

I have my books
And my poetry to protect me
I am shielded in my armor
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb
I touch no one and no one touches me
I am a rock
I am an island

And a rock feels no pain
And an island never cries.

-Songwriters: Paul Simon & Art Garfunkel

Glimmer

“I preach darkness. I don’t inspire hope—only shadows. It’s up to you to find the light in my words.” ― Charles Lee

Awakening

“April’s air stirs in 
Willow-leaves…a butterfly
Floats and balances” 

― Matsuo Bashō, Japanese Haiku