Lonely people tend, rather, to be lonely because they decline to bear the psychic costs of being around other humans. They are allergic to people. People affect them too strongly.
~ David Foster Wallace
I tend to believe this. I, for one need at least days if not weeks to recuperate after being with people. I feel they suck my energy. I can sense their troubles, sadness in pain. Even in the streets, strangers who brush through me leave something behind and I can feel it sticking on my skin, burrowing itself through my pores and ending up in my system keeping me awake whole night.
Lately it is getting much worse. I can hardly stand a visit from family members, even my own children exhaust me. I feel they are invading my privacy and crumbling my structure, messing up my otherwise settled day; I can’t wait for them to go away so I can lie in my bed under the sheets, trembling.
I wonder if there is someone out there who replays in her/his head all the conversations that went on during encounters with people, analyzing every word of what have been said and looking for a better approach to improve the communications and connections, looking for hidden meaning and motives among them.
Or it is just me, being plain crazy…
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