Leftovers

Dear M.

Now that I’m staring at mortality straight in the eyes, now that I am beginning to realize I will not be here forever and my expiration date comes sooner than I have expected, I remember you. I remember the time you saved me from drowning. Twice. The first time was when my so-called cousin Rosana (which I never knew existed and have met for the first time) tried to drown me because of the ring you gave me. Remember the ring? The one you fashioned from copper especially for me? The same ring you have thrown away in the sea for safekeeping and promised the waves will deliver it back right at my feet when the time comes. Unknowingly, that must be the reason why I spent so much time on the breakwater when I was growing up, just staring at the sea. But you lied. The ring is still out there lost.

The second time you saved my life was a major, major case. I almost died. I didn’t know anymore why I decided to follow my eldest sister out in the sea that day. I saw her having a good time with a fella and they seemed to be walking in the water. I thought the water was not deep. I forget they could swim and I cannot. And before I know what was happening, I found myself sinking. I had no idea that drowning feels like that. As if you’re spiraling endlessly down a very dark abyss. I remember calling my father, then nothing.

The next thing I knew I was laying on the sand and you gently slapping my face telling me to wake up, as if drowning was a funny joke. But that’s you. Everything is a joke to you. Maybe it’s your way of coping with the circumstances that we were in. I will not go into detail with that. There are certain things that better left buried and forgotten. I’m sure you understand what I mean.

You said you saw me disappeared from the surface and grabbed a big zinc basin which is normally meant for transporting fish and rowed as fast as you could where you saw me vanished. You had to search for me down there for seemed like ages you said before finding me at the bottom unconscious. For a moment there you were scared, you told me. I don’t believe it. You scared, a seasoned Huckleberry Finn… no way! You even teased me about it afterwards, saying you’re my first kiss. In my book it doesn’t count.

Anyway, I never properly thank you for saving my life twice. In fact, I never talk about it. Not even to you my best friend. Perhaps I was too young to understand it all. I was barely eight years old. You were twelve.

I don’t know where you are now. Fate separated us oceans and continents apart. I wonder what happened to you and what you become. The last time I saw you I was aboard a moving bus. My family decided to move again. You were running alongside the vehicle calling my name. You handed me something through the window before you let go. It was another of your creation. A copper pin name.  My name. I lost it in the bus. I must have fallen sleep. Sorry about that.

Once again, wherever you are thank you. If you didn’t save me, I would not have this rich and multi-coloured existence. I hope we see each other again so I can say this to you face to face. M. you’re one of the few people I didn’t regret I’ve met.

406179_455847751116411_1885844605_n2

 I wrote this yesterday for the daily prompt: Never Too Late but decided not to post it. Now, here it is, Daily Prompt: Leftover Sandwich.  And by doing so I’m killing two birds with one stone.

10 thoughts on “Leftovers”

  1. I’m glad you posted it. It is a very moving story and very personal. Thank you for sharing it.I think we all have someone like that in our lives that comes in and then back out, but I never had anyone that saved my life.

    Like

      1. Thank you so much. I’m rooting for you too.
        I remembered after I wrote that to you that in a way I did have someone save my life. When I was 17 and wanted to end my life, someone stayed on the phone with me for hours, and he was a stranger, a radio dj.

        Like

      2. wow! did you see him in person? did you properly thank him? why prompted you to call him and not… let’s say one of those emergency numbers or a friend (this maybe i know why) or a family member…

        Like

      3. Because my family ignored me…

        I was a teenager and had a crush on this voice on the radio, a local station, and I would call up and ask him to play songs I liked, or just to make a connection, probably.
        I got to meet him again, and it didn’t go terribly well ( I’ll write a post about that day sometime, it is longish)
        But I did get to say thank you to him. I am glad for that.

        Like

      4. let me know when you finished writing the experience. i would love to read it. i remember in the 70’s requesting songs via radio djs was hot. my eldest sister even writing letters to them.

        i disregard things about proper closure before. now i’m beginning to understand the importance of having one.

        Like

      5. I did call a lot and write letters as well. He was very patient! I definitely want to write this now.
        Closure is so important, if we can get it.

        Like

      6. okay, i let you get on with it. looking forward to reading it. they say the best way to forget things is to write it on a piece of paper. just let me know and till then…

        Like

Be memorable. Say something unforgettable.

Please log in using one of these methods to post your comment:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s